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Drugged, Raped and Blamed Is the Name of the Game With VibeWithMolly / VibeWithMommy

Drugged, Raped and Blamed Is the Name of the Game With VibeWithMolly / VibeWithMommy

Drugged, Raped and Blamed Is the Name of the Game.

This was the night I lost my childlike view of the world.  This is the night I lost faith in others.  This is what sparked my hatred for men.  This is the night I first tried "alcohol" and this is the night I lost my virginity.  This is where my mess all began.  So if my mess is my message, then this is where my purpose lives.           

You know what's fucked up?  I think about this.  I think about this situation everytime I’m sober and alone.  When there is nowhere left for me to hide; I am here.  I am pressed up against the chain link fence, bra exposed, jeans pulled down around my ankles and consciousness fading in and out.  This is where I live when I’m alone.  My mind takes me back to that day.  My body follows and my sense of self starts to disappear.  

What Does It Mean To Embrace A Beautiful, Shitty Life? With VibeWithMolly / VibeWithMommy

What Does It Mean To Embrace A Beautiful, Shitty Life? With VibeWithMolly / VibeWithMommy

What does it mean to embrace a beautiful, shitty life?

I figured out that life is made up of beautiful and equally shitty moments.  It's crazy, one moment I could literally feel SO good.  I mean NOTHING can get me down.  I'm walking taller, I feel solid in my foot steps and not a care in the world.  Then, like a switch, I find myself feeling scared.  I start to ask myself questions like, "Why are you so happy?  What makes you so special?  You live with your mom and you're a single mother."  Then as quickly as it came, my smile is gone.  This beautiful moment has now been replaced with the most shitty feeling.